Well...

So my second shift at Mens tonight. Was a very short shift.. 4.25 hours to be presice. I mean I got paid $160 for one night's shift :)
Well that's what it said on my payslip, it isn't in my bank yet. Knowing my luck my fucking bank details will be wrong.

There's a cute boy there. One of the bussy's. He looks at me sometimes and talks to me rarely. He's still cute.

I wonder how long I'll last there. It's funny. I think I like it and I think it's easy. Especially once I learn where everything is and everyone's names! There's way too many fucking people there.

Well I guess I'd better go to sleep, get up tomorrow and do some more cleaning. Maybe go to Ikea. Maybe go into work.

My boob job isn't really any closer then it was before. I the chances of me getting $10,000 by the end of the year is near impossible. Unless I fully fuck myself and work all the time. I just can't though. I hate that fucking feeling, of being so tired, sore and hungry that you would seriously, actually rather be dead then alive at that current moment.

Fuck man I need more money. I mean even if I keep my job at VG. I would have been making more a fucking week doing my full time hours then working at Mens and VG. Death. Why the fuck don't these things work out ever for me. Why the fuck can I not have an easy fucking job that pays fucking well. I got to get a full time office job I think. Sitting on my ass all day, sorting through paper work, greeting shitty fucking customers and talking to people on the phone. I mean how fucking hard can that be?

I'm sick of appying for jobs. It's a waste of time and it takes up so much fucking time. I can't be bothered. Maybe tomorrow I'll look for one. I mean come on, I want about.. fuck it, $700 a week. Yep that's what I fucking want to be on. AND to do that at Men's by the look of it I need to work 6 fucking days a week. Fuck me. Why do I bother at anything, I'm never gunna ever get what I want and it's never going to be any time soon. At least I haven't needed to buy clothes all this time. For summer all I'll need is new footwear. Maybe some new sunnies but I love the ones I've got.

Anyway before I start talking more and more about fucking shit I need to go to bed. Hey look I can type and look at the screen at the same time!

Anyway.

Fuck my mother fucking life.