I'm getting somewhere

Sooo, yesterday I picked myself up a laptop. Brand new, shnazy thing. I've wanted it for ages but never really thought that I could get it.
I was on sale so I got it on interest free shit. It's $50 a week for 6 months. I can do that. I have to be able to do it now.
Eh there's 5 months untill my lease is up. I don't know where I'm going to live. Or if I'm actually going to be able to afford it. I just need to find a crappy little place. I don't want to live with my sister I really don't. Is she serious, does she want to live with me? God I couldn't handle it, her annoying personallity. She would drive me insane.

I don't know what I'm going to do next year. I have a small thought in the back of my head to just keep working and get into some full time work with a salary. But then what am I going to do and where is that going to get me in 5 years time when I can't do anything else.

2 years at school. Minimum. What if I can't live. What if I can't pay for all my bills and shit. Maybe I should do some budjeting shit and get serious.

Funny, I love my laptop :)

I like having an idea of what I'm going to do next year but not actually knowing what's going to happen, I don't like that.

I don't want to live with anyone. It'll be out for the bf when this lease is over. He's of no financial help or emotional for that matter. He's gunna be a thorn in my side.

I can fucking do this and I have to stop relying on guys helping me out.

It's been a long post. I probably feel more comfortable posting posts from the comfort of my bed with dickhead asleep next to me.

I wish I could see into the future.

Speaking of sort of future stuff. Going back to Swan Hill was funny. Do I really look that different and that good? There's so much more to fix.

I wish I knew and had everything.